The start of a new year always brings self reflection. Did I accomplish what I wanted to this last year? What can I do better this year?
Up until I turned 30 & had my 3rd child weight never needed much reflection. Since then it has. I hate that it's an issue & I hate even more that I can't seem to work hard enough & long enough to make any real changes.
Somewhere during the time when I had 2 kids, being pregnant with the 3rd, selling our house, living with my parents for a year while our new house was being built, losing my mother in law to lung cancer & moving to the boonies I acquired bad habits. I haven't been able to shake those habits & my youngest is nearly 6.
It's time to change. But guess what, I've said it before & I don't change. Will this time be any different? I really don't know. Honestly, that's part of the reason I'm not starting a new blog dedicated to my so-called weight loss journey. Because I'm not sure how long the journey will last.
What I did right in 2013:
I STARTED RUNNING
This is huge for me because I've never been a runner. I've done the gym thing, I've enjoyed pilates & belly dancing. But, I've never run. I'm using the word run loosely. Really it's a slow jog. It kicks my butt, my face turns bright red & I sweat, so I consider it running.
In the end, I realized running was going to be the only thing I could commit to doing because essentially I could do it anytime, anyplace & without special equipment. We live too far from town to make a special trip a few times a week just to go to the gym. We already spend an enormous amount on gas each week. I blogged a little bit more about this on my farm blog. So, running is what I committed to.
|In February I got this elliptical machine. It's in our bedroom, which isn't ideal. But, I run on it.|
|I try to throw running in whenever I can. When 2 of my kids were in a clay class over the summer, my oldest & I went to a track & ran. We had just enough time to jog 2 miles.|
|One time, while running with a friend, we came across this guy.|
|Another time my kids decided to run with me, even though they weren't in the best running shoes.|
As proud as I am that I've kept with the running, I've also kept on the weight. Seriously. I weigh exactly the same today as I did at this time last year. It's frustrating. I still wear the same friggin' pants.
I realize weight doesn't just come off with exercise. You have to eat better, too. I was just hoping the running would change a little something. Nope.
So, I guess this year I have to buck up & do better. Make some real changes. Commit. I know if I lost weight, the running would be easier & my time would get quicker.
My first step is joining the weight loss challenge at Sisterhood of the Shrinking Jeans.
I so badly want to add this badge to my blog. I have way more to lose than 15 pounds. But, I'd be ecstatic to lose 15. So, I'll start there. It seems doable if I could just make a couple changes.
Hell, I'd be happy to add this one. That would be 5 more pounds than I lost in 2013.
On my farming blog, in October, I did a 31 day blogging challenge. Along with it, I challenged myself to 31 days without coke/pepsi. Ha! I don't think I lasted 2 days. I already can't truly make this a 31 day challenge since I had soda today. But, I can hope I'll make the change tomorrow. Last year, in January, I vowed to not have soda in the house. I gave myself permission to have it when we were out. I was able to stick to that & I drank far less soda that month. Guess what? I didn't lose even 1 pound that month. It seems as though my body is telling me this is the weight it's happy at. But the charts call it obese, so it can't be ok.
I honestly can't commit to any long term goals, but I can focus on short term.
Short Term Goals:
• Lose 5 pounds each month for three months, for a total of 15 pounds. I know I would look & feel better.
• Make soda a rare treat, not an everyday drink.
• Run 3-4 times every week
• Work up to doing 5 push ups. I've never been able to do push ups. This is a true challenge for me.
I certainly didn't make my goals too challenging. I'm hoping they are goals I can actually accomplish. I need to be able to say I've stuck to something & achieved my goals. These goals are achievable if I use self control.
Wish me luck!